When I finally got back home I decided that no, I wasn't going to worry about one dropped day in a month of days. In fact, I am going to expound on it. You see, it's easy to visit a blog, especially a blog whose sole subject has been self improvement this month, and walk away thinking "Wow, this person has it all together!" I look fine on paper. In real life, I don't, at all, have it all together. Case in point: today's little field trip to the old abode. So I thought maybe we would all feel a bit better if I showcased a few of my flaws, just to gain a little balance.
- I'm a piler. I make piles of clothes instead of putting them away. I am constantly fighting piles by my bed (of books, notebooks, papers, pens because I like to sit on my bed and read and write)
- My car - it's a wreck. I have not cleaned it at all since we moved when I treated it like a combination dump truck and U-haul. We won't even discuss the last time soap and water touched it.
- I'm not happy that the Cardinals won the World Series, not because I really even care about baseball, but because someone who hurt us deeply in the past loves them.
- Some days I have to grit my teeth to not just yell at my kids "Could you just back up and give me some breathing space and silence for six to eight hours for THE LOVE OF PETE!"
- I spend too much money on books for my Kindle
- I really, really struggle with following through to end of things (My friend Megan calls herself a professional quitter-- I relate)
- I made biscuits the other night that were so awful we threw every last one in the trash. I don't even know what I did to mess them up!
- I burn bridges - quickly and without regret. This can be very healthy, but it also can lead to some hurt feelings on the part of others and lack of mercy and grace on the part of myself.
- I'm a recovering perfectionist. I still battle it daily.
- I can be very stand-offish in situations where I am not comfortable. Emotional distance is a like a safety buffer.
- Sometimes, my mouth is so not in anyway edifying (or even fit for public consumption)
So you see, there really is a lot of room for improvement. I realize I will always have flaws, and no sooner will I conquer these than a whole new set of problems will arise to the surface for me to work on. We are all works in progress, but I like it much better when I know a group of friends is working right along side me despite my many flaws.
|I moved my desk so I can see the lake out of all the windows. Happiness.|